Things I’ve learned this week

Wow. To say I’m going through some personal changes mentally would be an understatement, I feel like a completely different person. Lately I’ve been over analyzing the person I am and trying to fix some parts of myself I don’t necessarily like, here’s some things I learned this week..

I put in way too much effort when it comes to relationships- I’ve been looking over my friendships lately and found that one of them bothered me, mainly because I find I’m the only one ever trying. I’m always the first one to send a txt, first one to organize something to do, first one to offer a hand, first one to ask if there is a problem… I’m just the first one when it comes to everything. And I’m over it. It takes two to tango, I’m done doing it all on my own so from now on it’s up to them.

Harry Styles is a God- Okay so I already knew that before this week but seeing him in the flesh at the ‘On The Road Again’ tour just put my obsession in over drive. His charisma, cheeky smile and of course man bun could not have been better if he tried. Now I can’t stop searching #ontheroadagain on instagram.. I need help. SOS.

Chanel Rogue Allure (Luminous Intense Lip Colour) is amazing- Ahhhh could these be anymore divine? I made my first Chanel purchase this week and it just happened to be this lipstick in shade Incandescente. When purchasing it all that was running through my head was ‘I got that red lip classic thing that you like’ because it’s red. Just plain, simple Chanel red.. only thing I wish is that it was a matte finish but surprisingly the satin finish lasts for well over 8 hours, even made it through my messy night with only one touch up. Now I’ve got to keep telling myself NO MORE because $52 for a lipstick is pricey.

I want to move interstate- Okay so this happened more than a week ago but Kim, Paige and I have made it our mission to be residing in a suburb of Melbourne by this time next year. Some hard work and a lot of saving will see our dreams come true, I can feel it. We’ve been sending each other link after link of cute little rentals just 20 minutes from the city and each link makes us a little more eager to turn our drunk idea in to our reality. We’re thinking south of Melbourne in a cute little three bedroom townhouse filled with fairy lights and hammocks, vegetarian food and margaritas, heaven help the delivery man when we place our Urban Outfitters order.

Home made guacamole is love- I’ve been making this with every meal lately and I’m pissed off it’s taken me this long to love something so easy and tasty. 1 Avocado, feta, mixed herbs, pepper, natural yoghurt (if you want it creamy) and a squirt of lime juice.. heaven in a bowl. Today I made sweet potato chips and guac, also known as the best lunch ever.

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When do you move on?

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I guess this is something I’ve been struggling with lately and the input of my friends opinions haven’t exactly helped me out. I still can’t wrap my head around this whole ‘letting go’ thing, like how am I just meant to not necessarily forget about but stop thinking about someone I invested six years of my time with? To me it just sounds impossible, I spent six years of my life loving and caring about someone who just ended up not wanting me anymore. I guess I’m still in shock that I went from sharing every aspect of my life with this person whether it be by phone call or during back tickles while we watched Lion King, to not speaking a word to each other. I think the more appropriate question here would be ‘how do you move on?’ rather than ‘when is it the right time to move on?’

I took who he was and embraced every bit of him, yep even the bad morning breath. I turned what he saw as his flaws into the things I loved most about him. He was the one person who knew me, the real me. The walls I had spent years building around me took him only seconds to knock down. I was a book and he could read me with his eyes closed, one touch of his lips and I was jelly, the whisper in my ear made the hairs on the back of my neck stand up and the constant feeling of home made me fall in love with him day after day. I didn’t think I could love him anymore than I did six years ago, until ‘I would do anything for you’ turned from a quote I’d heard in movies and books into my reality.

Love. If I had to describe it in three words I would say; rewarding, testing and hard. Actually hard doesn’t even seem to cut it, the toughest thing you’ll ever have to endure. It wasn’t until I realized it meant more to me for him to be happy than myself that I knew I was in love with him. Me turned in to you which soon turned in to us, us was all I thought about. You soon consumed every thought in my head, I saw you in everything and even when I told myself not to my mind would always subconsciously come back to you. It’s like you were heroin and I was the biggest addict. When enough was never enough and too much was never too much.

I don’t want to move on and I don’t have to. That is the answer to all my questions.

Happy Birthday Paiche

On Tuesday my good friend Paiche (her name is actually Paige) turned 22-ooooooooh (yes that is me pulling a Taylor Swift punt. Shame on me. The girls and I chipped in and got her the amazing new Mimco sling… slightly jealous because it is perfect but it suits Paiche soooo well! Chels and I accompanied the birthday girl to a carb/cocktail filled dinner at Rusticos… a local tapas bar with the best sangria I have ever tasted.

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We started the night with a jug of the sangria, duh! And soon after placed our food orders…

Tomato Basil Rocket Pizza, Pulled Port Pizza, Patatas Bravas (little deep fried chunks of potato, or as I like to call it.. HEAVEN) Petit Mignons (little pieces of beef sitting in sweet potato mash wrapped in bacon and topped with a chargrilled asparagus) and Sweet Corn Croquettas.. if only I could share the taste of all of these with you via this blog but let’s be honest just reading this could make you put on a few kilos, I’m sure I did eating it.

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After our first jug of Sangria we decided to mix things up with a jug of Pimms, never having it before I was expecting a super fruity cocktail until I took my first sip and realized they mixed it with ginger beer- definitely not a fan of ginger beer so needless to say I’m not a fan of pimms either. The third jug was a rose` sangria, OH MY GOD! I was in love.

The night consisted of chit chatting back and fourth about literally everything, so many laughs and snorts (mainly from me) were shared while we wined and dined over some of the best foods I’ve ever tasted. Rusticos is located on the beach front of Rockingham, often showcasing local singing acts and has a cool yet classy vibe to it. The hostess are laid back and super friendly, and although it is a little pricey the food is definitely worth it.

Now a dinner wouldn’t be complete without a dessert tasting platter now would it? So of course we felt obliged to order one… or maybe we’re just pigs hehe. But seriously who could say no to chocolate pecan brownie, apple panacotta, creme brulee and chocolate mousse… clearly not us. And to add the cherry on top of a fabulous night we wrapped it up with a mirror selfie session in the bathroom- take note boys, when a group of girls go off to the bathroom it’s definitely not for a rap battle it’s so we can pose 100 different ways in the mirror and upload a new instagram photo with the #bathroomselfie.. and thats exactly what we did. Happy Birthday Paiche โ™ก

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February Wants

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1. Aesop Parsley Seed Cleansing Masque

2. Hourglass Ambient Blush Wardrobe

3. Karen Walker Joyus Sunglasses

4. Camilla Beach Towel

5. Nars Yachiyo Kabuki Brush

6. Anastasia Beverly Hills Dip Brow

7. Zimmermann Celestial Clutch

9. Record Player

10. Mac Lipstick Velvet Teddy

Aussie Aussie Aussie

So January is home to one of my favourite days of the whole year.. Australia Day! The one day of the year where it is acceptable to wear Australian flag shirts, stick southern cross tattoos on your arm, drink copious amounts of alcohol and start an ‘Aussie Aussie Aussie Oi Oi Oi’ chant with a complete stranger. I did indeed do all of them, straya mate. Australia day is also home to Triple J’s Hottest 100 Countdown and as usual 2014’s countdown did not disappoint.

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My day started off with vegemite on toast, duh! and a few too many shots of tequila. Then came wine, jack daniels and more tequila. I spent a majority of the day at a friends penthouse apartment overlooking the canals in Mandurah where I had my first spew before lunch, ate too much salt while spilling my tequila every where but in my mouth. Ashley turned in to my Mum and Jaydon took on the role of Dad not long after when he had to wash my spew filled shirt. Later on we went to the new local ‘Ocean Bar Grill’ OBG where we ordered cocktail after cocktail, inhaled pizza and sang way too loud to the countdown. We were being judged by everyone there and we didn’t care.

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Not long after my favourite gals came down to join us for the top 10 of the countdown and get just as drunk as me. We wasted no time getting down and drunk, cocktails were ordered, wedges were fresh out of the fryer and singing at the top of our lungs started. Nat wasted no time uploading a 100 second snapchat story that involved me being a complete fucking mess, cheers girl! Top 5 commenced with our favourite song of the whole year and we let everyone know it..Take Me Over- Peking Duck. Holy Shit. We were wrecked.

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After the countdown had finished with the favourite Chet Faker- Talk Is Cheap taking out number 1 we then took to jumping in the canals… my white shirt turned green as did my blonde hair, cheers Mandurah you dirty bastard. Food at this stage was the only thing we wanted so off to Grill’d it was.. a ceasers palace and probably a water thanks! Drunk was probably an understatement for the state I was in so home it was, well we got as far as Paige’s where we drank nothing but water and talked shit about anyone and everything.

A paragraph a week: Week 2

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What can you hear right now?

Besides my cousin telling our dog Jaxi to be quiet and stop crying I’m currently listening to Only Love- Ben Howard, ahhh how I love this song. I probably discovered Ben Howard a couple of years ago and ever since then I’ve been hooked, particularly loving his new album ‘I Forget Where We Were’ released late October last year – Rivers In Your Mouth being my favourite track. I’m actually surprised Taylor Swift wasn’t playing on my itunes when I started to write this because ever since her album debuted last year I’ve had it playing every moment I can. I’ve never been a tswifty fan, ever! I mean sure I knew all the words to all her songs and I sung Love Story as if I myself were singing at MSG but never had I been too phased by her until 1989. It was one of three albums I purchased last year- up until recently I’ve been a spotify/youtube-mp3 addict so purchasing an album in my eyes is a big deal. Wildest Dreams and You Are In Love are definitely my favourite picks from 1989. I can;t get enough.

What are you listening to? Drop some tracks below that you want me listen to and I’ll check them out.

Southbound: A Photo Diary

As you know I attended the annual Southbound festival the first weekend of this year down south with five of my friends. Hot was an understatement, drunk was my state of being and happiness filled every bone of my body. Day drinking became my favourite activity, SAFIA were proabably one of the best bands I’ve ever seen live and Vodka Redbulls were all I consumed for 48 hours. Here is a few photos that sum up my weekend perfectly, messy!

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