I’ve taken off the invisibility cloak

IM BACK! … even though I never meant to intentionally disappear for a good few months. I wish I could say I’ve been busy but lets cut the bullshit and just put it out there that I’m not the best at sticking to something. I last left you with my post about Europe and how it was finally me booking my trip… that lasted a whole of 2 months and here I am telling you that as much as I want to be jet setting off to my dream destinations, this dream has been put on hold. Don’t get mad, it’s only so another dream can begin. I received my working overseas visa for 2016!!!!!!! Moving to Europe, holy shit. I don’t think I’ve fully wrapped my head around the concept yet either. – I will put a post about this individually because I feel there is a lot more to say regarding this.

Let’s take a recap of the last few months, with a big help from instagram.

The Southbound lineup got announced and I almost had a heart attack when I realized I could see Vance Joy live, and spend a whole weekend away down south with my friends, some ciders and a shit load of live music, could it get any better? I don’t think so, even though I’m yet to purchase my ticket (I’m working on it) I’m still counting down the days. check out www.southboundfestival.com.au  for dates and the full lineup.

I went to Hooch (an event at a local night club, filled with fresh squeezed 18 year old hoes and 23 year old local boys trying to get some new pussy) with the girls from work, my usualsand a pair of ‘Miley’ buns… that led to a large consumption of $5 hooch punch and a few good hours of rinsing***

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I then took YOLO to a whole new level when two friends and I purchased some second hand Kanye

IMG_2598 tickets an hour before his concert. Would kindly like to thank that very random guy for putting his three tickets for the one and only YEEZUS TOUR on gumtree and selling them for $80 each and providing me with one of the best nights of my whole life and dare I say it, best live performance I’ve ever experienced. The atmosphere at Perth Arena that night was something I’ll never forget. Not one person in their seats, everyone making triangles and screaming out ‘nigga’, not to mention all the A grade men that crowded the place. There is a reason people call Kanye West a God, he literally blew all my expectations out the window and I’d happily relive that night over and over again.

I finally, after a year of Ashley begging me gave in and cut my hair… all of it.. off.. to above my shoulders. I’m the first person to admit that I hated it (sorry Jess) but I’ve gotta give in and say that now its grown a bit I’m completely in love with it- I even dyed it brown, but that lasted all of 2 weeks and I went back to my favourite red locks.

The day all Apple lovers were waiting for came… the iPhone 6 graced us with its presence. If I said I wasn’t let down I’d be lying, however I could never commit and make the change to Samsung so in true Morgan form I went and bought it, a 16GB iPhone 6 in IMG_3326the Gold- I now have an iPhone 6, 64GB in the grey coming in the mail.. so I guess you could say yet again Apple have managed to drain my bank account.

After deciding not to venture to Europe next year I did what any of you would do…. after saving for months I went on a shopping spree. Asos obviously was first on my list after having deleted the app so I wouldn’t give in. I blew over $200 in about 10 minutes. I then bought more shoes than I have room for and went for a sneaky trip to Camilla.. www.camilla.com.au check her out. She is Australian and makes the most beautiful pieces of clothing I’ve ever laid eyes on. From the moment I walked in I knew I’d have to buy something and so I did. $400 later I walked out with my Kimono and since then things have never been the same.

I also took my shopping spree to MAC, but I’m going to post that on it’s own because a MAC haul deserves it own post. ‘Nuff said.

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Halloween hit and so did the fact that October is over and Christmas is only 6 weeks away. I’ve never really been a fan of Halloween but the girls from work wanted to go out so I did, der. I went as a candy skull (so original right) but I’m just gonna put it out there that I was the best fucking candy skull in the whole of Perth, thanks to my friend Kim Leeming and her knack for make-up. The night started with ciders, it then led to too many smirnoffs, a bunch of slut dropping, pissing in a sink, falling over and grazing my knee and ended with losing my purse which contained all my cards and at least $400… FUCK MY LIFE.

So there you go.. not a lot has happened at all, but I promise to keep you more informed and post a whole lot more.

Much love always, Morgz x

Rinsing***- a form of dancing that is actually more like throwing yourself around to the beat of the music and looking like you’ve taken a shot of acid.

Europe is finally calling me

That is right everyone, as of Monday last week Europe was officially booked, for me!

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A friend from work and I have been talking about it for so long and when the summer dates and prices for Europe 2015 were released we totally ‘yolo-ed’ it and went in to book. An hour and half in a travel agent, some date picking, rock paper and scissors for which airline and a $200 deposit is all it took to book a 27 day, booze filled, island hopping, backpacking, bucket list checking, life changing tour. In 301 days (June 30th 2015) I’ll be embarking Australia for the countries I have lusted over for quite some years.

We chose to go with Topdeck’s ‘ Summer Fun and Sailing’ tour.. https://www.topdeck.travel/tours/summer-fun-and-sailing

If anyone has done this or any other contiki/topdeck tour and you have any helpful hints to help make it the best it can be please feel free to let me know.. for instance, do I take a backpack or a suit case?

friends.. ha ha

Lately I’ve had a great deal of trouble trusting people, yep even my nearest and dearest. Trust is rare and in the words of Lady Gaga and Beyonce

‘trust is like a mirror.. you can fix it if it’s broke but you can still see the cracks in that mother fuckers reflection’

It was brought to my attention a week or so ago that one of my friends had told another friend a situation of mine which I’ve only shared with two people, gob smacked doesn’t even cut it, neither does disappointed.. I guess you could say I’m hurt. Because of being stabbed in the back so many times before I’ve become a very private person, I like to keep things between me, myself and I. Now I’m left questioning my my choices in who I trust and who I don’t, this also has me looking over my friendships… Why am I always the one to put in effort? I’ve noticed a few things before now but I’ve always swept it under the carpet; like why am I the only friend who ever offers to pay? I know this is stupid and it’s probably my own doing but whenever a friend of mine can’t afford something I’m the first person to help them out… no one could ever call me selfish, but no one ever offers to help me. No one ever offers to pay for my food or my festival tickets and to some extent I understand why, I work full time and they don’t but I pay rent and they don’t. I pay for my car and they don’t. I pay for all my groceries and they don’t. I pride myself on being independent and not needing help from anyone but sometimes it’d be nice for a friend to say ‘let’s go here, my shout!’

 

I’m probably sounding a little pathetic, I know. I guess I just feel like in some friendships I’m always the one putting in effort and for a piss ass 20% effort in return!

august wants

I’ve decided that from now on I’m going to post a polyvore collage of all the things I want for the month and aim to buy at least 3 of the items. I am useless when it comes to buying things I actually want and instead of saving for a week or two I just spend my cash on stupid impulse buys that I usually only use once or twice, hopefully this will help me work towards things that I really really want, within reason of course (because I really want a Hermes bag but that isn’t happening any time soon)

 

So here is my 10 ‘august wants’

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1. The Horse watch in matte black/black leather (www.thehorse.com.au, $129)

2. Karen Walker ‘The Number One’ sunglasses in ‘Crazy Tort’ (www.shopbop.com, $280.14)

3. Vans Authentic in white (www.asos.com.au, $89)

4.Clinique overnight moisturiser (http://www.cosmeticsnow.com.au, $57.95)

5. Smashbox Photo Finish Colour Correcting Primer (www.smashbox.com, $38)

6. Mac Lipstick Kelly Osborne collection in ‘Riot House’ (www.maccosmestics.com.au, $38)

7. Nars Radiant Creamy Concealer (www.asos.com.au, $41)

8. Birkenstocks Arizona (www.asos.com.au, $124)

9. Viktor & Rolf Flowerbomb 100ml (austrawberrynet.com, $192)

10. Mimco Pouch in Mesh Black (www.mimco.com.au, $89)

7 days

So it’s been a week since I updated you on my joke of a life.. I started the week with a heavy heart and even heavier eyelids due to zero sleep on Sunday night, I felt like I had been hit by a train physically and emotionally. I called in sick for work and did nothing but lay in my bed looking at the ceiling while a hundred and one things ran through my head. I didn’t eat (until dinner when I consumed a whole deep pan cheese pizza) I didn’t sleep (not even a for a minute). I did however download and watch a whole season of Dance Mom’s, probably something I shouldn’t be proud of but it happened. Tuesday was exactly the same only this time I left the house to go and run the tracks of Point Perron (a local beach/walking track) It was the best I had felt in a long time, music blasting through my earphones, the wind in my hair, nothing between my Nikes and the beach sand, it was almost as if my mind had been put on pause because for that hour and a half I didn’t think anything and the only thing I felt was serenity.

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I’m not too sure when I will begin to feel better, maybe I never will. I don’t know what a full nights sleep is any more but I’m adjusting to the 2 hours I do get every night. I believe that God is above, watching all of us but sometimes I have a hard time understanding why he let’s certain things happen to us. I know that He will never put us through something we can’t handle but right now I don’t think I’m handling things very well, or at all. I’m a zombie, it doesn’t even feel like this is my body anymore, I’m on auto pilot and I don’t know when I’ll gain control again.

 

I really hope this is a case of ‘you don’t know what you’ve got until it’s gone’ and that soon he’ll realize I love him more than anyone.

 

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You and I will always be unfinished business

I’m not even sure what is going on, if this is all a nightmare or a giant slap of reality. Either way it sucks and you’ve left me, again.

It would have been six years in October, six fucking long ass years. We’ve been loving each other for so long yet at the same time killing each other with the stupid mind games and emotional abuse we both flung at each other. We were as far from normal as it gets but it was us and now we’re just You and I. The past 14 hours have been a complete blur, I haven’t slept, I’ve cried enough tears to drench my pillow and I’ve listened to Ed Sheeran’s album on repeat at least 5 times. I don’t know what to do, I don’t know how to feel, I don’t know how to stop all these feelings I’m feeling. I just want it all to go away, I want to bury my head in my pillows and just act like none of this has happened, but I can’t, it’s not going to stop. You’ve said enough is enough and I can hardly blame you but I’ve become so attached to you, you’re a part of me that I need to function.

 

You’re my person.

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The one who calms me down.

The one who helps me see sense.

The one who makes me laugh.

The one who can break down my walls.

The one who knows when I’m upset.

The one who sees through the smile.

The one who knows me better than anyone.

The one who accepted me.

The one who snaps me back to reality.

The one who dealt with my shit.

The one who loves me even when I don’t deserve it.

 

You took who I was and loved me, even the flaws and we both know there were a lot of them but you didn’t care me. You loved me wholeheartedly and unconditionally, even the times I didn’t deserve it and let’s be honest… that was most of the time. You changed me for the better, you taught me that love is hard but in the end it’s always worth it. Never did I imagine that I could love someone as much as I love you, I never knew I could ever love someone more than I love myself but you proved my theory wrong. You gave me the greatest experience any human could ever have… to love someone and have them love you in return. I can’t even put it into words how grateful I am that I was blessed with your presence in my life and I know at times I took you and the love you had for me for granted but if there is one thing I need you to know it’s that loving you was the best decision I’ve ever made.

 

In the words of Ed Sheeran

‘just promise me you’ll always be a friend because you are the only one’

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birken whaaaat?

So it seems birkenstocks have made a come back but I am still somewhat undecided on whether or not I should blow $129.95 on a shoe I normally wouldn’t look twice at. It wasn’t until I saw six different posts featuring these sandal like shoes flash up on my instafeed that I realized that these world known shoes had made it back in to the fashion scene, some may argue that they never left and others are catching themselves asking ‘birken what?’

Then an episode of Keeping Up With The Kardashians aired and there they were, on Kourtney’s feet and that is when I found myself trolling online shopping sites trying to find the best price. Are they worth it? Will I wear them? Are they comfortable? Do they fit well on wide feet? What style is the right one? And the hardest question of all, black or white?

 

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I need your help fellow bloggers…. Do I commit to the ‘checkout now’ button or give this fashion craze a miss?